Watch: Sam Smith Opens Up About Wanting Kids and Making Music

by Kilian Melloy

EDGE Staff Reporter

Wednesday October 28, 2020

Non-binary British pop singer Sam Smith opened up to Zane Lowe in an interview for Apple Music about their third album and their hopes to have children, U.K. newspaper The Independent reports.

Lowe and Smith discussed Smith's new album, "Love Goes," on a track-by-track basis. In the course of the conversation, Smith, 28, told Lowe that one of their goals now is to have children by age 35.

"I want kids. I want all of it," Smith told Lowe. "I want to be with the kids, and I want to watch them grow and be with them every day. I want to be mummy,"

But maybe not quite yet. Added Smith: "I'm definitely going to do that at some point, but I've still got more in me" in terms of their music career. "I've still got ambition."

In the course of the conversation Smith opened up their own childhood, recalling how they came out at age 10 and, by age 14, was "wearing makeup and female clothing all throughout school." Though their family were accepting, Smith said, that time was a lonely one, "because I had no one around me that thought like me, who was openly gay around me at all in my life.... just that feeling that I think that all queer kids have when they're younger, you know. You're brought up in a world where you're told it's not okay to be what you are, and that's really, really hard."

As an adult, Smith had to reckon with those early feelings. "It's a weird thing to think back and look at," they explained, saying, "I came out, my parents didn't abandon me, I'm all good. But then you actually get to this age where you're like, still even though all of those things were great, even though I'm so lucky and privileged, it's still difficult."

Smith talked about distilling their experiences into songs for the new album. "This album is about a certain relationship, and it's my first-ever relationship," Smith disclosed. "It awakened me sexually, it awakened so many parts of me."

When the relationship ended, Smith took to songwriting to process their feelings. "I was so heartbroken when writing this record - I'd say the first proper time I've been actually heartbroken. That feeling of, 'They're gone.' You can't sleep."

Other experiences factored in as well, including Smith's having come out as non-binary in 2019. Saying they felt "super emotional" about the album, Smith told Lowe that "the last two years have been a really, really mad time, you know, of experimentation, of finding myself, you know, with my gender expression... so much that's happened in the last two years is captured in this music." Added Smith: "I really set myself free with this record."

Watch the interview below.

Kilian Melloy serves as EDGE Media Network's Associate Arts Editor and Staff Contributor. His professional memberships include the National Lesbian & Gay Journalists Association, the Boston Online Film Critics Association, The Gay and Lesbian Entertainment Critics Association, and the Boston Theater Critics Association's Elliot Norton Awards Committee.