Paris Hilton Blames 'PTSD' Previous Racist, Homophobic Comments in Early Aughts

Looks like Paris Hilton finally has an explanation for her history of making racist, homophobic, and antisemitic remarks. According to her autobiography, "Paris: The Memoir," it was all a case of PTSD.

As reported by Insider.com, Hilton shared in her memoir that spending her teenage years in treatment centers where she was physically, emotionally, and sexually abused "severely damaged" her filter.

In 2012, RadarOnline obtained an audio recording of Hilton making anti-gay comments during a taxi ride. Later, she apologized.

According to Hilton, Hilton she was forced to take part in attack therapy sessions, called "raps," at Provo Canyon School and other schools, where "people went for the most obvious target in the ugliest possible language."

"The N-word. The C-word. The F-word. (Not that F-word, the worse one.) I look back on some of the things I said in the years after I left Provo, in the throes of PTSD, and I'm mortified," she wrote. "Horrified."

She also felt "grossed out," she wrote, "because that means those creepy people got inside my head. I never really left them behind," Hilton continued, adding that while she "tried hard to drown it out," the "roar of the Rap was never far away."

To cope, Hilton said she partied.

"I couldn't party hard enough, couldn't drive fast enough, couldn't crank my music loud enough or vacuum up enough love to make it go away," she wrote. "Sometimes I fell back on that slay-or-be-slain mentality, and I'm not proud of that. I was fucked up, okay? And I drank a lot. Like, a lot."

But, she went on to say, "Saying I drank to dull the pain – that's an explanation, not an excuse."

She wrote, "Sometimes I was just wasted and being a fucking moron." Even though she explains that she doesn't remember half of the things she did while she was blacked-out drunk, "I'm not denying it."

"Paris: The Memoir" is available now from HarperCollins if you want to read more.